Tantric Buddhism
The Best Meditation I Ever Had
The best meditation I ever had, I haven't had yet.
It's in the future, which as anyone knows doesn't exist - anyone who meditates knows. But yet, I'll have it some day.
The best lifetime I've ever experienced hasn't occurred yet. I've had billions of lives. I've been around the universe almost as long as the universe, I think. I remember my lives; you don't. Or you remember a few. I remember a billion. And I've had wonderful lives. I've had wonderful lives, beautiful lives, lives of struggle, lives of battle, lives of ecstasy. I've had beautiful lives, and this is a beautiful life I'm in now. It's a hard life, as they go, but it's a beautiful life.
But I haven't had the best lifetime yet. It's around the corner, I know it is. It hasn't occurred yet because things get better in infinity as we get better. And in each lifetime we get better.
The universe is always ecstasy and it's always perfect. But we don't perceive it that well. And if we keep doing our yoga in every lifetime, we perceive it more correctly. It isn't that infinity gets better - I have no doubt that it could if it were in the mood, and maybe it does - but the real issue is perception in meditation. Meditation is the study of perception. What we seek to do in meditation is refine, which means, simply, make more accurate our perception of things. So I haven't had the best meditation I can have because there's no end to the refinement of perception.
Yes, I say that I am enlightened. What does that mean? It means I live in a condition of light. After many years of meditating, practicing, I've reached a point that can't be described or discussed - but one is always in a condition of light. There is really no primary self anymore. It comes back in every life without me seeking it. One has to refine it, but it just comes back unsought. I live in a condition of light inside my mind. Nice. But that condition of light can be refined. There's no end to it because we perceive the universe through the universe. We perceive light through light, and there's no end to the gradients of perfect light.
So I believe that the best lifetime hasn't occurred. I don't think the most beautiful sunrise to be seen in the world has been seen on this earth. It isn't that the sunrise will grow more beautiful, it's that we will. And we'll perceive it more completely than anyone before. You might say, "Well, God, the universe is filled with a lot of slimy stuff. There are pollutants in the air, there hasn't been much aura on the earth from the time of Atlantis, and you could really see then." And I'd say, "Well, that's true, but you know, those chemicals create beautiful sunsets."
You see, Buddhists are optimists. We never saw sunsets in Atlantis like we do now. We didn't have all those great chemicals in the air. So what is beauty? Is beauty the acknowledgment that chemicals in the air create beauty or would beauty be to bitch about it and say, "Well, God, back in Atlantis it was much nicer!" And what does it mean? I would think it would mean you're further along in your perception of beauty if you can see beauty in things that other people wouldn't consider beautiful.
It's the refinement of our nature that is perfection. It's not a thing that we go and do. You're seeking a perfect town, a perfect car, a perfect wife or husband, a perfect teacher. You're missing it. The perfection is in your apprehension, not in the thing. It's in your apprehension, in your perception of things. You want a perfect job? Create a perfect mind and whatever your job is, it will be perfect. You want a perfect life? Create a perfect mind and whatever your life is, it will be perfect. You want to see a perfect sunset? Create a perfect mind and look at the sunset, any sunset, and you'll see a perfect sunset.